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Suicidal Tendencies

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I wake up from a weird dream, the sleep still clings to my eyes.
I look to the windows, i see it is still dark.
I get up, turn on my computer, i put some music.
The hours melt away like nothing and the sun starts peeking through my window. I push the curtains out of the way, open my window and light a cigarrette.
The sunrise matches every word of the song.
I look down from seven stories high and i imagine what went through your mind. Maybe i should do the same.
I put one leg over the balcony and i think the weirdest things.
From this high, Will i have time during the fall to remember all my friends? All my past girlfriends? All the good experiences i’ve been through? All the bad experiences?
It’s not enough.
Maybe I should just end this like you did. Leave it all behind, who the fuck will care?
I burst to tears, gut-wrenching sobs that sap all my strength.
How could you do it? I can’t stand to reason.
I grad on to the ledge with my knuckles going white.
I don’t have the guts to do it.
I know now how much you cried... i know now how much you suffered the moments before you jumped. I remove my leg from the balcony.
I scream to you how stupid you were, what a mess you must have been to accomplish that stunt.
I wish that time could go back so that i could be there right behind you to tell you not to do it. You would have changed your mind.
So that know i didn’t have to miss you.
I wish that we could have just a little bit more time. Enough time for me to show you more of me and more time to earn your trust. Not that you didn’t trust me... but... just a little bit longer.
Our last words were of anger and sadness. I can’t believe you let me say goodbye like that.
I wanted one last hug.
I just wanted to feel you next to me one more time.
But it’s too late now.
You’re gone and i will only see you when i get to the other side.
I’ll punch you in the face for what you’ve done and i’ll hold you close for all the time you made me miss you.
Great guy. Great friend.
The world has no meaning now that you are gone.
But i will endure. You would have wanted it so.
This isn’t goodbye. This is “I’ll see you later”
just read the damn thing.
© 2005 - 2024 jonas-node
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AphroditeFace's avatar
Eu acredito na reencarnação.
Acredito que temos que "andar" neste mundo e voltarmos tantas vezes quantas necessárias até nos tornarmos seres puros e bons...
Pela lei da Causa e Efeito, todo espírito, por ter livre-arbítrio para agir, é responsável por seus actos, por isto Deus não castiga nem perdoa. As reencarnações são necessárias para o reajuste das imperfeições passadas e conquista do aprimoramento, para evolução futura;